23
Matthew Ryan Fischer
You notice the coincidences and
somewhere deep down inside that caveman tries to see the predatory in the shadows
and your brain tries to make out a pattern that might be the difference between
life and death. That’s all it was – coincidences and the desire to make sense
of a strange and uncaring universe.
She told me she had figured the
numbers out. The order that would reveal a truth. Patterns maybe. But a secret
to the universe? I doubted it. I enjoy speculation about symmetry and the
golden ratio, but I’ve never once thought that hexagons or probability thought
exercises could prove the cat was live and unalive or that we were trapped in a
matrix within a matrix.
Still, she had called, and I had
ignored the message a moment too long, so when she disappeared, I instantly felt
guilt about all my derision and poor phone-answering etiquette. She was obsessed
with order and repetition, clearly believing she could find some pattern
within, and within such madness she could find truth.
What was she doing? I found notebook
after notebook. Piles of scrap paper. Folders. Notes in books. So much paper.
So much waste. Over and over, she wrote the numbers. Again and again. Ascending.
Descending. Positive. Negative. It wasn’t an equation. And the pattern, if
there was one, was lost or changed on several occasions. What was it? What was
she solving?
3:33. He had glanced at the clock and
it was 3:33. Damn it, he scolded himself. Don’t you start this too. Never mind
that 3:33 really meant 15:33, but if you’re dealing with a 12 hour cycle, then
this is what you get. He also realized the date, but chose to ignore that.
There was no 23rd month, so no matter how the day or year fell, it
didn’t matter. There could be no significance to the repetition of the repetition
didn’t continue throughout.
But still, she had disappeared. Gone.
For days now. Where could she be? Her most recent notebook was half full. And
it cut off, mid-pattern. The pen still on the page, like it was suddenly
dropped in a hurry. What had she seen? What had the numbers revealed? And where
had she gone?
It was a maddening thought. He didn’t
want to think it. But what if he came back on February Third? 2. 3. 23. Or what
about March Second? 3223. Would she be back? Would something great and beyond
belief occur?
He had to go. He had to get out of
there. He couldn’t stand to look at the pages upon pages of numbers anymore. He
couldn’t take it, that lingering feeling, that growing fear, that pressing
desire to read through the pages again. He had to stop. He had to go.
Still, he couldn’t shake the feeling
that something or someone was watching him. Any he couldn’t help put look at
the calendar or count down the days as they passed, inching every closer to next
repetition in the pattern.
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