Lloyd
Matthew Ryan Fischer
Bilocational theory posited that a person could exist simultaneously
and live two separate lives, sort of like a human Schrödinger’s
cat but with far more possibilities that life or death in a box. Bilocational
theory didn’t concern itself with multiverse theory. One world was strange and
peculiar enough, there was no need to invent parallel lives and parallel decisions
constantly constructing additional worlds. It was unclear if a bilocational
being was a doppelganger or clone of some sort with a physical body, or if it
was a spirit or ghost or shadow of some sort. It was just theory after all. Some
believed bilocation abilities coincided with the dawning of a new age of spirituality
and had its ties in chakra or inherent psychic abilities awakening.
There had been studies. Agents
traveled the world to interview and investigate supposed sightings of strange occurrence.
What was needed was some way to map the entire world, simultaneously. All faces,
all people, all at once. If you could see where everyone was, then the algorithms
would quickly identify any duplicates. But the implication of such a system
seemed impossible at current time. Without proper resources, without proper privacy
constraints, any such system seemed like a disaster waiting to happen. Plus, no
major government or company prescribed to Bilocational theory, so getting
access was next to impossible for the theorists.
Lloyd learned long ago to keep his
dreams to himself. He had been on and off drugs for most of his youth and seen
a dozen or so different therapists and psychiatrists. Not one of them had
believed him when he told them of his journeys. Some were more polite than
others, but just like his family and friends, they all believed he had a series
of hallucinations and what he saw as a different world was nothing but his mind
playing tricks.
After a dozen years, Lloyd had
begun to think they might be right. Travel to a different world as a child and
teenager? It was the sort of thing out of fantasy novels and comic books. If it
was real, then why did it start and why did it stop? If it was his mind, then
the plethora of medicines might set things right. He had given it a whirl and
been walking in a semi-low dose daze for almost half his life. If he was seen
as a slacker or underachiever, he always had a good excuse. He was just so
tired, all the time. There had once been a push to lower the dosage of this or
that drug or switch from something to another, but he lost track of all that
and just took what they gave him without asking too many questions.
But then recently the dreams had begun
again. The dreams that felt like flying. The dreams that reminded him what it
was like to actually live.
Lloyd hated waking up. It was
almost too much to take. The dreams were so much better. He was free. He was
who he wanted to be. It was the world. The world as he wanted it to be. The
world he had seen when he was young.
Lloyd didn’t tell anyone about his
dreams. He knew what they would say. He was afraid there would be more drugs
and tests as well. So, he kept it to himself.
But Lloyd began skipping doses of his
medicine. Not many at first. Just a pill here or there. Once or twice a week.
He wanted to see if the dreams kept going, got stronger. He wanted to know that
he wasn’t crazy and that there might actually be something out there.
The months passed and then there
came a point that Lloyd missed checking in with his psychiatrist. And nothing
happened. No one came looking for him, no EMTs kicked in his door to do a
wellness check or drag him off to an institution. Nothing. Maybe bureaucracy
moved slowly. Or maybe his psychiatrist didn’t care. Or maybe Lloyd was better
off that he knew.
The world opened up. He was free.
No one to watch him. No one to stop him. The pills would run out and then he
would see. The other world was out there. Lloyd knew it was. He was going back.
He was going home.
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